"Remember, democracy never lasts long. It soon wastes, exhuasts, and murders itself. There never was a democracy yet that did not commit suicide."

- John Adams in one of his letters to John Taylor of Caroline

Here is your major info. These are all the specifice anthropology classes you have to take (most of them will be as a Junior and Senior).

http://www.uh.edu/academics/catalog/las/las_degree_anth.htmlv

If you have any questions about it call me, but it is an outline of all basic core classes and specified major classes. Usually the only classes that aren't specified are elective and the things like that.

Here is a list of all anthropolgy classes that you can check out (This is for choosing electives, seeing as you have quite a bit of freedom with the classes you want to take).

http://www.uh.edu/academics/catalog/las/anth_courses.html

And here are all your core curriculm classes (all your basic boring highschool bullshit, you have already started knocking some of this stuff out).

http://www.uh.edu/academics/catalog/las/las_degree_gen.html#2core

Notice that none of your classes are really specified by a number except for English 1303 & 1304. That means you pretty much have free range of the classes that you can take in those subjects (i.e. Math, Math/Reasoning, Humanities, Visual, etc...) You can check out this site to pick your classes for basic core classes.

http://www.uh.edu/academics/corecurriculum/index.html

I know this is lots of stuff so if you need help with it (I'm sure you can handle it), just call me and we will get together and figure it out. I think that is everything.

When this semester is over im just going to lie down in my bed for at least 48 hours and not move, just sleep off the stress.

I created a nation-state under the advice of Ben and Daniel. I would advise all others to do so. Basically you have to Create a name, Pick a flag (or create one) and answer 5 questions, that depending on how you answer them, dictates what type of nation-state you have. Everyday you are presented with 2 issues inwhich you take a side on, which once again alters your nation-state. It is pretty cool... If you want to create one go to www.nationstates.net and when your nation state is created join a 'region' call the Kiran Empire (this is where Mine and Ben's nation state reside) If you need help figuring out how to do this just leave a comment or send me a telegram via nationstates.net.

Driving home from school today, an old black ford suv pulled in front of me and I noticed it had a couple of stickers. One was a pro-gun sticker and the other was a church sticker. The church one said Church of Baptist ... something... Christ or something of that effect. Only the sticker was really old so the ...something... christ was pealing off along with it the bottom of the b and the whole t in baptist. So the sticket read "Church of Rap ist," and i laughed hysterically.

How depressing...

Today was really good. History class was ridiculous as usual. I said, "She's not here today because I fucking raped her and killed her" really loud today. I hope she shows up friday so people don't start to freak out. I also managed to draw a celtic looking cross that said In God We Hide. I started off sketching stuff I might want to get tattooed to me. I guess I scratched that Idea and decided to really freak out everyone behind me. I looked up alot of stuff on heroin today. There is alot of information about that stuff (drugs). It is disturbing.

I think that I might being going to Ruston, LA to camp and race in two weeks. Should be really fun. School was somewhat relaxing monday. I think probably because everything is kind of adjusting back to normal and my professors aren't freaking out about lack of time.

I was upset when I read Clay's post. I think there are some situation where you should be dressed in a decent manner (Ex. Retail). But, he is a fucking paper, office boy other wise known as a slave. I guess having worked in somewhat of a corporate enviroment and actually giving a shit about my first job I was able to analyze things that don't normally stand out. Like the more miserable your co-workers are the more miserable they want to make you. This goes ten fold if you are younger than most of the people you work with. The truth is that because he is of lower rank, no matter how he looks they will find something to bitch about. It is best just to do the best you can (if you care of course) and go about your day. The people in charge notice, and if they don't you quit that job and try another. That is one freedom that will not exist for ever with us. We won't always have the freedom to just leave, being as we could have other things/people in our life that we must support. I don't know where I am going with this, Just try not to let it get to you. I'm not asking you to ignore the frustration but mearly to blow these people off... Because when it comes down to it, those peoples lives suck. They have and never will experience what we (our group of peeps) have in the mere for fifth of our lives.

"You should be pleased with your ride. Some of my best races were after I fixed a flat and spent the rest of the race in chase mode. You also can chalk it up to a lesson learned, I know it can be hard to sit behind someone who is holding you up. Way to go hard and finish. Your time will come."

Will Black

Today I shook violently and threw up from nervousness... She never showed up to class. At least i can type up notes now and give them to her.

I remember thinking at somepoint today that the (first) time I gave her notes i should have talked to her. I remember thinking that was my chance and I blew it. GOODIE!

"Cut one of my wrists open after dialing the campus police-office, explain 'Yes I have injured myself severely, Yes I need immediate medical supervision, Yes I did this on purpose, No I do not want to die I just don't want to feel so empty, Yes it was a mistake, Yes I agree that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem, Yes it was a selfish thing to do, Yes it was a cry for help, Yes I know that I should know better' and spend a few weeks in a mental-health center, break my mom and Aimy's heart, terrify my friends, come back embarassed with a scar on the inside of my arm?"

Corey I'm not even sure if you look at my posts, and we never have been terribly good friends. My heart actually stopped when i read this. I guess you are not looking for pity so don't get offended that I am posting this. I just want to remember it.....

This guy came into my shop and bought a bike from me. I had no idea who he was until someone told me... them i looked on the net and when i saw his face i almost had a heartattack. AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

http://www.cnn.com/2003/LAW/09/19/ctv.durst.trial/index.html
http://www.cnn.com/2003/LAW/11/11/durst.verdict/index.html

"Jurors who on Tuesday acquitted eccentric New York millionaire Robert Durst in the killing of his 71-year-old neighbor, Morris Black, said they had to put aside the defendant's admission he dismembered Black's body and then fled because it was not part of the question they were told to decide." ..... what the fuck is amatter with us. HE CUT UP HIS BODY AND THREW IT IN GALVESTON ON SELF DEFENSE!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

I had a dream about a girl last night. No one in particular, or at least no one i know yet. I can't really picture the face. I was pretty clever in the dream and made here laugh allot. We were both health freaks. It gave me that really comfortable feeling when i woke up. I had a smile on my face that was uncontrollable. I feel good right now, even without a girlfriend.

Well, I left town anyways. Got up this morning at 2:30. I have seen some amazing things the last couple of days. Yesterday(Thurs/22) I went for a ride to 359 were that shell is. I ended up going through Pecan grove and everything. The whole city is like a ghost town. There was no traffic, anywhere. This morning when we were driving away from houston @ 155&I-10 We saw an amazing site. There are two gas stations sitting at that intersection and about 200-300 cars sat in the parking lots, streets, and medians. There was trash everywhere and people sleeping in the bed of trucks. It was just so phenomenal I can't describe it. Sureal.

My first race is in a couple of weeks. I think the First one (weekend) in september. Should be exciting. I'm going to use this as a measure stick. To see where i need to be at for the end of October when I have two back to back races. That's where i wanna be in super good shape. I've already started cutting back my diet and paying alittle bit more attention to the way i feel when i climb on the bike. It's actually pretty weird how you are completely uncomfortable when you are super tired but it I am rested up and get on the bike for another hard ride the bike feels womb-ish. Thurs-tommorrow I took some time off intense rides and letting my body recoupe from the last build cycle. I was super tired and yesterday i had to drink a shit load of coffee to even functin at work. I HATE COFFEE. I'll start the next build on Tuesday. That should leave me time to get my heart used to very high rates agian.

Training is weird like. You are constantly tring to tear down all your systems, but only to a point so that you can recovery before you have to go hard agian. The trick is to no dig a hole. The longer it takes you to recover the more time you could have used for producive training. Efforts here in the next couple of weeks are going to get insane. I'm going to do a Time Trail on weds to see where my fitness is at relative to 3 weeks ago. The i will focus on very short burst of energy. One exercise being a 10 min long effort at about 90% of your absolute max heart rate. this is very similar to what i have been doing but at every 50 sec. time check i get out of the saddle and sprint as hard as i can for 10 sec. then i sit back down and try to find my tempo to secure my heartrate back into the 90% range. I guess it's probably hard to understand. The closest thing i can compare it to is running. WHen you all out sprint for 100m and you chest just feels really heavy. It's that real sick feeling you get and light headed. I purposely try to recreate that feeling every 50 seconds.

I'm sure this does nothing but bore you all and i don' care. This is mainly for my benefit. When you spend 15 hours a week on a bike it's hard to find motivation, so this is mine. I am getting excited.....

haha we started "dating" on july 26th in 2002

Sunday night I had an odd dream. It was basically just a dream about me being in a relation ship. I can't describe much, since it had been so long I am sure i would distort most of what happened. I do know who it was with. Quite honestly, the dreamy experience was amazing. And monday night i continued the dream and the same sort of experience. Everytime I think about this my chest gets very heavy. I actually get very sad and heart-achy everytime. I don't know what else so say about this. I want to feel this so much. 'i miss.. It all'.


Ughhhhh.

Rammstein's music is so silly but the vocals just have balls. College starts in about a month and I don't want to start at all. Actually I don't want to go to college. But, hopefully I will get through this year and get hooked up with a Pro/U23 (under 23) cycling team and be able to stop going. That or I might consider starting my own program. Smith glasses would be a cool sponsor. We will just see. With school starting up and me starting to do some more serious training you guys will see less and less of me. That doesn't mean much to most of you who don't even really make an attempt to contact me. I think that's it. I need to read Clay's BDay present - to me. Will update soon.